Saturday, September 20, 2008

Material Goods, where to draw the line?

I've been home now for a week. Since I've been here my dad's been hanging out with his girlfriend and I've been torpedoing through the house, getting rid of old stuff, filling my room with my belongings again. It's been a role reversal. I'm always at home doing work, and my dad is always out having fun. Funny thing is, that it's by choice. Well, tomorrow is the second day of the garage sale, been making some good cash which is cool, it'll help to pay for some groceries and rent. Oh how I hate reality.

okay on topic though, it's been strange and interesting to see how I relate to material items. I've gone through some of mom's things and a lot of memories fly back into my mind of her, but mostly it makes me wonder even more about her. What would she have to say if she were here right now? What I would do to be able to have a night's conversation with my mom!!

A cool fact: I was ripping some pages out of lined paper books that mom had only written on a few pages and then noticed that there were some pages already missing. Then I continued on further in the book and found some of my writing from elementary school!! Mom had already re-used these binders and now I was doing the same thing that she already had to the same books! It made me feel less guilty about ripping her pages out.

On the material items topic, I also was getting rid of jewellery I have WAY too much. Anyways, most of the pieces of jewellery were either given to me or else I got them in different countries. It was like each piece of jewellery represented a period of time in my life, or else a snippet of memories. Jewellery from Cuba, I remember mom and dad gave Erica and I $200 bucks to spend and we spent almost all of it in markets buying random things and going crazy at the jewellery stalls! Maybe it was less than $200.

I'm going through this weird stage in life where I think that owning too many material goods is greedy and unnecessary, cutting us off from what really matters in life. Though, I'm coming to realize that experiences soon turn into memories and all that one has left are those memories later on in one's life, so if a piece of material matter like jewellery remind one of a good time it can't be wrong to own it. Can it?

Where to draw my lines? Where does the grey area start and stop? I'm struggling right now to figure it out.

Right and Wrong are such strong and misunderstood words. Right compared to what? Wrong compared to what? It just depends on your life experience.

Anyways, I should get to bed since I'm going to sell some of those material goods at a garage sale in the morning, which is quickly approaching.