Dan

I just got off the phone with Dan. Why have I put such importance on him. What he does or doesn't do affect my emotions so readily even if I try to push them away. Does this mean that I like him? I like listening to his voice. It makes me want to be in his arms. It is calm, caring and playful. If it were an instrument and it vibrated emotions it would vibrate love throughout the air. It makes me think of his big comfy sweaters that make me want to hold him and hug him.

He sounded a bit strange on the phone today though. Wavering a bit when he asked me how I was. I think that there is not only distance physically between us, but there is too much time in between our moments spent together to make something more significant out of our friendship. I write friendship instead of relationship because it is easier for me to do.

Yet, we are sexual with each other and attracted to one another. I suppose when I think of my friends and their relationships with boyfriends maybe our connection is not as weak as I thought. I do like our time together, he is a friendly caring person and seems to genuinely like me too. Though, it would be nice to get to know one another a little more.

I'll go visit him on the island in a few weeks and see what happens.