New Years 2009

I had a wonderful New Years here in Victoria with Felicia, a girl in my band:).

However, what is really going through my mind right now is New Years 2008 and all of the people that I met in my 6 months of travelling overseas. I miss that feeling of complete freedomn. I miss that feeling of unexpected adventures awaiting around each bend. New faces, new scenery, new places. I miss the people that were so wonderful to me throughout my adventures last year in China, Nepal, and Laos. so many people and all of them are dispersed around the world. It is hard to imagine that for many of us, we will never meet again. We will not be in that same moment again together. I feel sad about that. It's a feeling that I can not avoid right now.

I feel content being here in Victoria, living a normal life. However, I want to make sure to take advantage of each moment spent here. To make sure that I am living life the way that I want to be. To be constantly pushing myself to learn and expand even if there is no schooling or travelling involved. I suppose that this is a New Years Resolution in itself to continue to challenge myself both physically and mentally. To continue to think for myself and try not to get caught up in this consumerism that is my society.

Also, I feel that this New Year I would like to take control of my life and make a plan for myself. I need to find a way to take care of myself financially. It is very hard to do so with no education. No matter what I keep telling myself abou tliving romantically and a degree just being useless. I have street smarts, but I think it's going to take more than that with the low economical situation that is facing our country. If I was in China or any country that had more than 30 million people in it I would be struggling to survive without an education in an even more brutal way than I am now. If I think that this is tough waking up each morning and going to a monotonous retail job or the likes, then I realy havn't looked at the whole picture. Maybe, I should be applying for school while the opportunity is there for me to do so. I should probably take advantage of this situation and commit to it. Time ticks and people get older. I don't want to be depending on others when I can better myself economically and have the means to do so.

Part of me wants to take off and travel for 5 more years until I'm 30. But something else in me told me to settle in Canada. To immerse myself in a community. I am going to listen to this part of myself. I want to get my shit together so that I can be helpful to others.